误会 A misunderstanding

TO: you

Since I promised you that I will change for sure, Iv'e been trying very hard to do it,

and maybe finally I've did it somehow? It felt strange for Dunstan and Ryan, because they missed the old me a lot...but never mind...they will get over it....I wrote this especially for you.... I know that a lot of your friends hate me, because I don't have a good behavior, however, I really hope that you can change your opinion of me, how I am as me in your heart....maybe you haven't noticed yet that I wasn't the same since. It was thanks to you, ya know, I gave up LS-ing and even saying foul words, or say bad things of other people.......

I wrote this so that you can understand me more, you know, I've heard about people saying that I always give bad looks of jealousy towards male friends who talk to you, well, I never did any of those before, can you believe me? I know you hate and don't like that and because of that people start keeping distances from you....I'm really sorry, but I hope you could understand me, I would never ever do that, maybe you and many other friends misunderstood, so I wish you know this.....

I've never "shoot" friends before just because they talk to you or play with you, I just like to see you be happy with them, that's why I always watch what you are doing, I just think that you are really adorable when you laugh and have fun with your friends....I like it when you are happy, it always make me smile.... I wish you can really know....I wish you wouldn't continue to misunderstand me... sometimes I wish that other people could stop being offended by me, I know I've been senseless and vulgar, but you won't expect the same me anymore, I apologize to everyone that I've offended, and I wish you can also accept me......

Like I always say, I don't want to hurt you, I can't afford to do something so harsh to you.....you know I only expressed my jealousy once , which was towards Kevin , and I still feel guilty , even though I've settled it out and now we're still good friends.....it's something that I will never forget, I hope you can be honest with me of everything, even though you think it might hurt me, I wish you could just tell me, because I really want to change......

Have faith in me......

From : Eric.N.C.H