I'm sorry mum...

I'm sorry mama,

I never meant to hurt you,

I never meant to make you cry...

She never talked to me since.

That night,

her heart ...

her heart shattered into a million pieces,

like broken glass...

My life wasn't the same since...

I woke up late this morning,

hoping for her to scream at me,

but...she never did.

It wasn't the same for me,

for I'd never seen her so disappointed in me,

this was the first time.

I went downstairs and saw her ironing our clothes,

but mine was left aside..

She ignored me..

She didn't even looked at me...

Her face was emotionless...

She is giving up on me...

The whole morning was nothing, but silence..

I went over to the dinner table,

where breakfast was usually prepared,

but NOTHING, nothing was on the table.

So I turned my head over to her

who was across the living room.

She ignored me and went upstairs instead...

I made breakfast myself..

just a simple egg with some seasoning on top and a cup of Milo.

She went out just as soon as I finished breakfast,

I was left alone at home...

I couldn't help thinking about what happened that night.

I sat by the dinner table, thinking to myself..

How could this happen to me, I've made my mistakes,

but it was too late, everything was too late.

If only I've known better, this was avoidable,

it wouldn't have to turn out this way...

The hour hand strucked 2,

it was lunch time and she wasn't back yet.

My tummy was growling, so I went to the kitchen,

hoping to find some food for myself...

Thank god! There were some leftovers from last night.

There was rice, still warm and soup that she'd made earlier.

Today, I prayed before having lunch and ate lunch myself on the dinner table...

It was lonely...I never knew that life could be this lonely...

" Dear father god, I hope that

this would be over soon,

Forgive me , Lord

for what I've done,

and me... forgiven..

I made her sad, I broke her heart,

Forgive me mum..

I never meant to hurt you.

In Jesus Christ, Amen..."