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Taylor Swift~Crazier

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
Then you came along
And you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier

Watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel
And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground'
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier,
ohh......

Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore..... more....

You lift my feet off the ground,
spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier

Never let go of hope. Someday you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. you will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself…how did i get through all of that?

I think we spend too much time wondering
why we’re not good enough.
We waste too much time putting ourselves down
that we don’t ever stop to see that we are good enough.
We spend too much time with our heads down and hearts
closed and never get a chance to look up from the ground
and see that the sun is shining and tomorrow is another day. =D

The Past

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. And that, I shall do. =D

GOD BLESS ME..

Life doesn't feel right....something is missing.
And my brain is on the verge of exploding from exerting too much pressure.
GOD HELP ME! T.T

Holidays~

Yup! The holidays are almost over. Sadly. 3 days left and we're back to our miserable lives...endlessly excelling towards our goal- PMR of course- and once again, friends, I haven't been blogging for quite sometime already. I spend most of my time wondering what should I do next and today, after refreshing my Mixpod playlist I found that there is a need for me to update my Blogger. So, I did.
Fun day Camp had just finished. Ahh...I miss camp, it feels so much more...FUN, I guess. Some compliments to the AJK's, the camp was awesome. Love Permai !! <3 and special thanks to my Ass. Patrol Leader- Kathy chan for doing a great job. Plus, I thank my patrol members too, for all of your cooperation, well sort of...but you guys were good too. THANK YOU!! xD
THEN....... LAZY TO BLOG ABOUT ANYTHING LW~ BYE! Peace out everyone ^3^v

lame weekend

Lazy Saturday. Perhaps the weather?
I'm not a fan of boredom and loneliness, which typically makes me sick.
Sick of doing projects and homeworks given by utterly emotionless teachers who thinks,"Hmmm, why not I make them work hard a little, for the sake of my reputation as a teacher?" Bollocks, I say.
Now that the weather is working its way against me, I couldn't be more bothered to blog about it. My blog is dying, at least that's what it is trying to tell me. " User, look at the date of your last blog, you haven't been blogging since you last set your mouse pointer at the BLOGGER tab!" Which makes it very angry.
However, today I shall prove that wrong. Let's see.... what have I been doing this week? PORJECTS!! that's all my time too it, no more free time for lots of other cool stuffs like checking out the Top Gear channel or laughing my teeth off with my brother watching Jeremy Clarkson destroy cars. Fun times always passes by fairly quickly and before you know it, you're back to being a nerd, I meant student. Who needs DIGNITY, I just want more of it....FUN.....
Nothing much to say about either. Hoping for my phone to ring any moment......missed chatting with you....that's because projects and studies are flooding in. Till here I shall write. Remember friends, it's always good to relax a little, ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY!

SUCKER PUNCH !! XD

Man, this movie is nice!
Pretty girls, pretty OST music, pretty scenes, and absolutely brilliant plot.
Couldn't help but to compliment about it. Magnificently choreographed movie.
I adore it, well, the visual graphics were astonishing as well. Oh, and Emily
Browning is super gorgeous! "Babydoll" was her role.

WTF ~

Holidays~
Ahhh.....free from the pressure, any kind of pressure....
Wait! That is not true at all!
Okay, unsatisfied with it, here's the problem people,
We get even more homework during the pityful holidays.
Hmmm...might as well we don't get one, and come on, is this a joke to teachers?
Or the guy who always hangs the word of " consistency" by his lips?
This is quite unacceptable for me. However....who or what am I to speak of the ridiculous issue?
Fine, let me get over with, or I might chew up a dog! Seriously.
We, humans are quite, no, literally bound to pressure. Pressure from work, pressure from school, pressure of being a perfectionist. I attended a church session today, and something caught my attention. Okay, basically, what the pastor said was " We, humans of this era, are stuck, bound to the word INSTANT, we do not want to wait! Have you ever noticed why is there INSTANT coffee? Instant tea? Instant noodles? Instant everything! Even the teenagers nowadays say 'Love at First Sight'. They fall in love with the first look, poof! INSTANT!" Now, that was something good to be reminded of. Till here, fellows gotta get ready for drama practice~ =D

12/2/11

Muahahaha~ first of all, I wanna thank all my friends !
What a great and big and cooool surprise you all gave me! All I can say is
Thank you x10000000 XD (Priscilla, I admit, I lose, haha)
I LOVE THE LAMBORGHINI GALLARDO XDDD <3


love it~! XD

And so, today is Saturday, without GERKO, which means typically, I'm very free~
Going to try to finish all my homework, and tonight i'm going to a Barbeque Party at Lawrence's house. I'm looking forward to it.
By the way, I went to the market this morning with my parents. Woke up at 8 , stammered into the bathroom, got dressed up, and off to the market~it was really smelly there, mummy bought a few vegetables , some pork and chicken meat too. Today, I'm the cook! haha, helped my mummy to chop up the vege and then tossed a few dishes in the frying pan.... sizzle....sizzle... hahaha~ tastes very good le !!

Something about love :)

Now, let me count..... 1....2....3....4......5....it's been 5 weeks since I last updated my blog.
Wow, what a long time. Life changed radically, with me still unaware of it. Time passed quickly,
Christmas has just gone, and now Chinese New Year, next? Valentines Day=D
I'm very sure that a lot of happy couples will be giving me broad smiles already. It's just something about love, nobody really knows what it is? Or how it came about in the first place. All we know is, it's something we share and have a lot in common. Love is everywhere in fact.
Well, first things first, I want to apologize to someone. Jenny! hahaha....sorry that I made you wait for such a long time to read my blog again. My humble apologies, really, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!~
Valentines day is closing in soon, and I'm looking forward to it. This time it maybe the first time I'll celebrate Valentines Day. EXCITED.
You and me. I guess our relationship isn't that bad after all.... How I remember, during the old days, you just caught my attention. My heart literally stopped pounding, I was holding my breathe the first time we met. And now, 3 yrs had passed, my heart , like a compass still points towards North, where you'll always be. I know , it won't be forever, but I wish that you'll never have to leave me.....
By the way, I thank all of my lovely friends for yesterday! We had a really great time together, laughing , playing and teasing around, I know we may look like idiots to the bus driver, but as long as we're having fun, that's all that matters =D
it's rather late and my eyes are falling like weighed-down curtains, so, that's all for now maybe, Good Morning !! (did I mentioned that it's 1 in the morning?! OWH I just did XD)

Homework and study

Damn it!! =P the reason why?
Simple, Homework!!!! they just make me wanna cry so badly =(
haiz.....it's the first week of school and teacher's given a pile of homework!!!!
Well, I kinda expected that it would happen already, Form 3 life, STUDY STUDY STUDY
Nothing else more~ it's so pain stakingly awful........

Haizz......going back to having school life again....
Well, I'm hoping this year, everything goes smoother,
OMG Puan chen is getting me on my nerves,
Then Novel is boring and difficult either,
Which basically means that the Form 3 BM Novel lesson would be like the fiery depths of Hell~!!
Yikes~ come to think of it, haha, We're one year older already...
ARRGGHH~~ PMR you're killing me....squeezing the life out of my body!! O.O

Cause some things just don't change, it's better when they stay the same.....
I just don't really get the world, maybe, not just me....everyone~
well, say, you should use an optimistic way to look and view everything that you encounter,
for me, I might think that it's a myth, in this cruel world, happiness is pretend, it's just a fancy show that you might get to pay to see in a circus, then it disappears with the dimming spotlight as the curtain closes in front of you. It is like what William Shakesphere had written....Life's brief Candle....
I totally, 100% agree with that. Eminem does it right too. Just imagine walking in his shoes. I'm guessing 10 out of 8 would end up jumping off a roof, 1 in Rehab and another one.......well, that is Eminem alright~
Happiness is all but a pretend, when you really feel pain,oh, pain is real. When that frustrating world finally turn it's back on you, well, you might just lose your mind....pain sorrow miserable ( can someone hand me a dictionary?) and many more words to describe it.... Ah bla bla bla~
Owh what the fuck, a lightning just struck me, that's what happened. Having a bad day, Now blabbering all about it.....and yeah you guess it agn, a frustrating quarrel with my fed up mother again....owh, I'm so pissed off!
Why does it have to happen, like all the time. == fine maybe I'll talk about some other time~ Let the storm pass.....

December+Winter+ Christmas!

What's December without Christmas Eve?!!

It's December! Which means it's the end of the year, and which also means~

IT IS CHRISTMAS!!!!! woooooo~

In fact, I really love Christmas......and I'm starting to hum Christmas carols already! Can you believe that, and it's still a few weeks to Christmas Eve~wow! btw Owl City's new song is announce, Adam's new release, "Peppermint Winter"! As you all know it, OWL CITY is the BEST....this song is totally awesome...no doubt! come on...guys you really have to listen to it....you'll love it~!

Jenny~! have a nice holiday at Sabah , ya! have a safe and most importantly FUN trip. Remind me. I'm going to Singapore too......well, soon......yeah!!!

Hmmm.....I think that's all for now....let me smooth my hair and sit back in the chair and ENJOY OWL CITY! this is what I call madness~ hahahahXDD

something that I've put aside for so long

I have been putting aside a lot of things lately,

pushing through them along the way,

sometimes I can't tolerate the feeling that,

this is all going to end....

I didn't even have time to think about it...

however, even if you have given up hope,

my needle will still always point North, to where you will always be,

like a compass, no matter where you go...

Things change a lot since, I don't even know where to start with...

maybe since the day you said that, we can just be friends....

I felt hopeless during then....

I fell down, but I can always crawl....

it's slow pace, but the journey is worth the "destination".

Give up is something I've taught myself not to say to you...and

There's something I have to let you know, the brick-red wall between

us it building higher and higher, and it'll be harder and harder for us to climb, and maybe if we fall again, it'll definitely hurt .....

Dear blog~

ahhh...the dreamy days. It's just what I could describe of how I feel these days. Nothing seems to bother, even the coldest nights feel so warm. Lay tossing about in my bed, last night, just wondering how were you right then?

Hmmm...anything special today? Well, besides 10 10 10, today's just great, rather fun. After Puan Chen, I went to KGS and wasted all my energy there. Played badminton, swam the crystal clear pool. It was around 6 or 7 when I jumped in the pool, the vanilla colored shades of the sky turn violet then dark blue. It was just nice as the twilight set in.

About 8, my family and I arrive at a hawker stall, ate dinner, then blablabla, nothing to say. Plus, last thing before I sign off, I listened to Brielle 10 times today! wow!

Sky Sailing

haiz....I've been rather lazy lately,

just drenched in the heavy atmosphere,

drifting away in my day dreams....

dear, I haven't seem to find out why I've been like this lately,

the day's just rather dreary, dreamy and it keeps me thinking of someone special. Last night's movie did not keep me awake, I fell asleep dreaming,

about how I gave myself a haircut , unpleased with the style....woke up in the morning, and found myself cuddling against the sofa, the dizzy feeling was temporary but my spine ached...

since the dawn turn light blue, my earphones have been whispering songs to my ear. Well, It was rather pleasant waking up to the voice of Adam. Ate breakfast then decided to get more of Owl City, so my PC came to life as the monitor lit. I was browsing through FB and Youtube when my mouse came to a halt on a tab that said" Sky Sailing" on the screen, and guess what, it's Adam's new album.....three word that defines it all " Oh My God"

I was impressed of how it sounded.....

Vanilla Twilight

Oh my god, the music keeps filling my mind...

It's so nice , the lyrics are just as lovely...

even the name....can't bare it must listen to it again.....

It means a lot to me actually, perhaps Adam young sang my heart out....

It brings tears sometimes, those times....need not to explain that much......

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Chills run down my spine

as our fingers entwine

and your side harmonizes with mine

Unmistakably, I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me

You

Every time you sit there ,

I find it hard to look away.

I always try to find the words that I could say,

but it's just so hard for me to look in your eyes.

Every time I see the reflection of me through your beautiful eyes,

Guilt,

tortures my mind.

"I like you"

maybe I was wrong,

I fell in love with you.

but

we're so far apart, the distance between you and me.

You're like a Northern Star,

where my heart will always point to.....

I never regretted, even one day when fate sets us apart,

I will still be there....

somewhere in another corner on earth waiting for you.

You're my only one, you're like the whole world to me,

I can't, I just can't give up.....

should I just give up?

or live up to the expectations?

I have no idea.

every time I think of you,

you convinced me that love is true,

but whenever I see you guys together,

I saw "evol" in love,

hurt from inside. something that I can never tell.

Sometimes I force myself in believing that,

You and I were never meant to be together,

Love doesn't exist at all....

and every time I only come to a conclusion

Love Hurts

been wondering

I feel wrong falling in love with you.

find it hard to believe . I needed you more than

anything else in this world right now.

sick and tired of everything that I've been thru,

sometimes I wonder, is it me or him?

I don't know what to do anymore,

Be Jealous once more and recreate history?

then everything goes bad again....nuh uh....

wouldn't want that.

I can only keep it to myself.

Sometimes I also wonder,

am I the best for you?

Now, I can only cross my fingers and have faith in you.

I trust you.

Once more, my world shifted.

My dark world, came for me.

Everything changed, what happened?

Lonely, describes my deepest feeling.

Even if there is light,there would only be one shadow ,

and it would only be mine.

I need you now. I'm alone.

Went for duty yesterday...

the weather sot sot de...

in the morning.....hot till got sunburn...

in the afternoon.....it rained like cats & dogs...

brrr.....so cold....I was wet from top to bottom....

haizz....so tired now...still got Puan Chen later...

err......lazy to type ler.....maybe next time....

be strong

Do we need some time out?

What is happening?

I never wanted you to feel bother,

I never wanted to force you,

you're not wrong.....

Be strong, I don't want to see you like this,

you're hurting yourself, see things a little more differently,

sometimes, you should just let go of somethings,

ignore everything, be yourself......

Everything hit you like a car, no time for you to pull yourself out,

maybe you're lost somehow....girl, you really have to stand up,

even how difficult things might turn out, we should face them together....

it's not about you forgiving me or not, it's about forgiving ourselves and everything around us...

those problems? maybe I don't know yet what are those, but just relax....everything would be fine, if you need me I will be there, if you cry I can be your shoulder to lean on, if you're sad I will be there to cheer you up, if you're lonely I will be there to accompany you, I will be by your side....it's just better if we discuss our problems over, I don't want you to keep everything to yourself, it's too much....it's a great big world out there, you must be strong, you must endure,

even if everything of you is starting to crumble and falling to pieces, you have to have the strength to put it back....there will always be someone to help you, to put them back, and if you need me I will surely be there.....take everything slowly, don't rush....

I don't want to accept your forgiveness, I want to see you stand up with your own courage,

I want see the real you, this isn't you, where's the real you, the one and only YOU !!!!

Why?

I suffered...

I am sad....

I am miserable....

I am hurt....

I am tired....

I cried....

sometimes it feels like too much for me, my life changed so much....

maybe it is time for me to grow up .... learn....and see thing in different way....

Time is cure for everything, maybe I should wait, be patient.....

but I've already waited for 4 years and everything remains the same for me....

it's too much

miserably down....

I feel like... I don't belong to this world anymore....

the overwhelming depression....

Everyone doesn't like me,they hate me....

my mum , my dad, my family, my friends....

mum.....

you never trusted me, never,

everything I do, everything I say is always wrong,

home....

I hate it.... it's just a place for me to sleep and rest,

nobody cares.....

I hate my home,

the reason why I like being with my friends, being out doors,

is because I would at least feel happy....

however it never felt warm, I never felt happy ......

everything single word you say,

hurt me, you don't even care how I feel,

you never knew how sad I am inside,

so hurt, so painful....my scarred heart still bleeds till this very day....

you will never understand the pain I suffered, is it because I never cry in front of you?

it's been years since, and every time it got worst...

everytime I think about everything that I've been through ,

tears roll down....I just...I just don't know what to do anymore....

why can't everything just return back , like the days before...

I feel so disappointed, the warm cozy feeling of a family,

was lost from my world....

I'm such a pathetic person,

I cheat myself....I pretend to be happy every single day,

only that, deep inside, the real me, I'm very lonely and down....

11 o'clock...

partially done with my homework....

don't feel like continuing doing it....

other than that I have to conduct a meeting tomorrow....

so many things to do lately....

projects pile up a few feet tall,

blocking my sight of freedom....

haiz....don't like to be confined in a tight space....

sometimes I feel like freedom is a far cry,

imprisoned by this enormous fort build from HOMEWORKS~!

arrrrgh~~~~help me~~~!!

@.@