it's too much

miserably down....

I feel like... I don't belong to this world anymore....

the overwhelming depression....

Everyone doesn't like me,they hate me....

my mum , my dad, my family, my friends....

mum.....

you never trusted me, never,

everything I do, everything I say is always wrong,

home....

I hate it.... it's just a place for me to sleep and rest,

nobody cares.....

I hate my home,

the reason why I like being with my friends, being out doors,

is because I would at least feel happy....

however it never felt warm, I never felt happy ......

everything single word you say,

hurt me, you don't even care how I feel,

you never knew how sad I am inside,

so hurt, so painful....my scarred heart still bleeds till this very day....

you will never understand the pain I suffered, is it because I never cry in front of you?

it's been years since, and every time it got worst...

everytime I think about everything that I've been through ,

tears roll down....I just...I just don't know what to do anymore....

why can't everything just return back , like the days before...

I feel so disappointed, the warm cozy feeling of a family,

was lost from my world....

I'm such a pathetic person,

I cheat myself....I pretend to be happy every single day,

only that, deep inside, the real me, I'm very lonely and down....