FUN trip~!

Sorry guys, there was some problems with my internet, so i haven got chance to post anything..

Well, our trip to Wisma Bapa MSAM had just ended, the place was totally crowded..

Lotsa ppl..but thank god our bus and the exhibition place was air-conditioned...

It was quite a large place...blablabla..

Okay the point is we had FUN...yeah! 2A rockz~!

Basically we were the most LS around..

We were chatting and playing our way from skul to the place and back non-stop..

No discipline...hahaha..

No hope

HOPELESS..that's all I can say..

damn it, I lost my phone...

bloody hell..so I you wanna contact me you can try dialing this number

082-572057..what the hell~!

Damned fools...

DON'T SPEAK OF SCHOOL ANYMORE!!

my birthday's tomorrow,but i dun see any reason to be happy for it..

it's just me and my miserable life.that's all..

Not friends, not enemies, you guys are nothing...

A second, a minute, an hour , a day , a week..

they have all passed....

The moon and stars look dimmer this days

as well as I am, I feel stressed out..even more..

I feel down, miserable, tired of life..

I can't take it, I can't get what's coming to me,

A lot of things happened, one after the other,

they are bringing me down on my knees.

my anger overwhelms me...uncontrollably..

I have tried my best to do what I can ...

but they just keep pouring in,

I'm stuck... in "quicksand " ...

Facing all of them at once is a problem,

but it is the only way to solve this problem..

I don't care what you motherfuckers are saying of me,

I don't give a damn about it, I do what I wanna do and say what I wanna say.

you guys can either love me or hate me for it...

I don't care anymore, it's up to your own damn minds to decide,

you guys are pathetic...I'm done with you guys..fuck off...

I feel LIKE....nothing...

This all feels like SHIT, motherfuckers ....

Nowadays , I feel like sleeping than any other thing in the world,

I'm tired...everything that happens around me just makes me feel sick,

At this moment, life feels meaningless, I have nothing to think of..my mind is empty.

I don't feel like doing anything at all...it just pisses me off...

I feel miserable, I guess it'll be just the same tomorrow, everything's just so

tense and gloomy, it almost as if feels like a playback scene, everything

starts the same...and ends the same..just like the days before..

No motivation, but the days just goes on and on and on...

What should I hope for? A better tomorrow?

Nah...i'm tired if every single thing now, I think I should rest...

I won't rest in peace, don't worry....

- - - - -nth to blog bout- - - -

words to describe my day:

busy

boring

miserable

tiring

sleepy

emotional

stressful

depressing

help....i'm dying here...

I'm in depression...it doesn't feel good..I feel sick and tired...

bloody hell...

TRY HIGHLIGHTING THE WORDS IT'LL BE EASIER TO SEE>>>

I'm thinking of you..

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere,
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me,
I'd send a postcard to you, dear.
Cause I wish you were here...
I'll watch the night turn light-blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly..

The silence isn't so bad,

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

Cause the space between my fingers

are right where yours fit perfectly..

TAIWAN i'm coming~! 3hrs left...hahaha

Farewell my friends, for I shall be away to another country ,

on a journey to seek happiness, freedom and cherish my moments with my family..

This is a way to relax the mind... for too much stress and boringness would make someone go nuts and insane, I wouldn't want to see a psychiatrist just yet, for there is still more to come in my life long journey...

Preparations are made, preparations of the mind, and also the preparations for

what I should wear?

what should I do?

what should I bring and not bring?

BUT, one shan't worry that much, it's just a waste of time. Don't worry too much, why hesitate?

Just AIM and Go for it...

I shall return , just in time to celebrate the coming, year 2010...tata~

Wish me Bon Voyage~!

HALLELUJAH~!

My boring days just got brighter~!

Yupee~!! I'm COMING Taiwan !

Thinking of Taiwan just makes me feel a lot better...

I'm going to Taiwan counting 2 days from now, and that means...

HELLO, Taiwan~!

and

GOODBYE, boring days at home ~!

I have this feeling of screaming HALLELUJAH~! at the top of my voice...hahaha..

Aww, man I LOVE THIS FEELING ! the feeling of FREEDOM..

IT's like a bird, finally released from its cage..WOOHOO~~

( well if I'm the "BIRD"........then you'll probably see TWO "BIRDS" flying out of the cage...hahaha, did you get it -_-? )

Okay, let's get over with that, I'm not that "yellow-minded"...

HAHAHAHA...SWT -_-|||

Anyway, it does make me feel more energetic everyday, waking up, knowing that everyday, every hour, every minute, is closer to going to Taiwan..and I'm obviously eager to go there..and I need that kind of eagerness, that PUSH motion or as I call it The Drive Gear to keep the cheeky me energized, or else the EMO-me kicks in, the DARK SIDE of me...EMOtionless, Lazy,Drowsy,Sleepy, which all describes the new sickness I'm suffering, I was diagnosed with

boredtodeathadosis( BORED-TO-DEATH-A-DOSIS)... highly contagious...hehe~

I'll be in Taiwan for quite a long time, so don't, just don't even try to contact me.. don't even think about it. or else you'll have to deal with the expensive phone bill at the end of the month.. it's all up to you, I won't reply anyway, or "someone" would throw a grenade at me...a " Terminator" sent to terminate me~! she could simply start firing bullets at me, if I make her angry...tough luck~!

PLEASE BE INFORMED THAT MR.ERIC NGU WILL BE UNAVAILABLE FROM 17th OF DECEMBER TILL THE 29th OF DECEMBER 2009, THANK YOU !

I'll celebrate Christmas in Taiwan, so let me wish you all a very merry Christmas and a happy new year first~! ( I promise that I'll blog more when I come back~till then =)

UnTitleD

I'm TIRED OF BOREDOM ~

Does anyone have the cure to BOREDOM..??

It's killing me...-_-

Please, do comment...

Training Camp 2009

Training Camp2009

~~PARKING~~!!! our trademark TM

Training camp 2009 had just finished, a fun-and-good-to-experience camp...

this was my second camp edi, it was really exciting ...

1st day, I woke up 4.30 in the morning had my breakfast and made some last-minute preparations before heading off to HQ.It's was still dark when i reached there. Later when everybody arrived,we all went into our own Patrols..

Lawrence and I had a Biscuit Eating Competition because they PAKSA us to eat all the extra biscuits that we've brought...KNS

Then we had our briefing about all sorts of things about the camp...then it's camp pitching time..

the 1st day was really tiring and all was totally NEW for me..an accident happened while pitching the camp, Jing Xiang hurted his left hand while using the Parang, he was seriously injured and was sent to the hospital later then..I heard that he almost fainted and he didn't feel anything in his left hand, it was a deep cut,blood cover his arm literally...

Finished pitching de camp site..mine PATROL2 is the 1st campsite

the first night was totally tiring I was half sleeping while playing games and singing the camp songs but felt better when singing " You Raise Me Up" with Ah Leo and Lawrence, super high key~

THE 2nd day~

after a good night sleep in the camp, we had a Camp Check in the morning. We changed into training orders. Things start to go wrong later on from that day,and there's the second case on the 2nd day,while we were still having camp checks, a man was sitting at the TaiChi bench near and in sight,it was just 10 steps away over the fence, suddenly we heard weird noises from there a looked over, the man was like suffering from cramp but not, it was worser, his whole body jerked and paralyzed as he struggled, at last he fell from the chair head first and paralyzed, a dog came running out of the bushes at the same moment screaming and barking at nothing behind as it was running from something ,Ah kiong and a few raced over to him to give help and treatment...

He recovered but his head was injured, Ah kiong called for the Ambulance and his relatives, the he was sent to the hospital..SCARY~!

We finished our camp gadgets later that night, and by then a had already 5 plasters on both my feet and hands, Lawrence and Chia ping got injured at the feet too... so became the Pai Ka 三人组 ....

It was backwood cooking when the best female awarded Liew Jia yiing( he's a boy dun get it wrong) cried for his mummy for real...he was crying in front of Ah Kiong tell him that he couldn't take anymore and wanted to go home...hahaha~

He was so happy when he saw his mummy, he waved to his mummy and ran towards his car happily like he hadn't been home for 10 years..1 word, he's a sissy...

The 3rd day~

Morning call at 6...we woke up packed our things and got ready to board the bus for Matang. We went hiking there, and on the way there, a car accident happened as we witness the tragedy, we drove past it then continued on to Kubah National Park. After a slight brief bout the park from DOMINIC the guide, we start hiking...A few hours hike from the bottom to the summit 3000 feet up, with my injured leg, well Stella had a cramp on the right calf on the way up too...it was beautiful up the view was overwhelming when we climbed up the tower, it was awesome~!

We had eggs and our hot dogs , took some pictures and then we went down hill...

People say that going up hill is more difficult than down hill, but I think it's the other way round..

I got more injuries on the way down and that's why i walked so slowly, I was the last batch to come down..4 more injuries..plus later that day..

That very night was the scariest night of my life, we played the so-called burung hantu...terrifyingly scary...I was shaking and oni Lawrence noticed it that night....

That nigh was the last night too and so, we had a campfire, we did a sketch earlier, which i played the role of a bad boy friend..called Ah Gu,I still dunno where they get that name from...

and Diane plays the role of my girlfriend who's gonna turn into a ghost later on..

4th day~

The last day..

Camp check..later..OBSTACLES really fun ( but kids dun not try it at home, it's gonna get really dirty)..

We played in mud a few centimeters deep...really fun ...but dirty..we kept everything and destroyed our camp after that..

I took off my clothes and wash my whole body that was covered in mud, then it started raining really heavily,I was half naked with Leornardo and playing in the rain with the rest, they washed their hair in the rain with shampoo, how weird~?

later I took a bath with Lawrence for over 30mins really clean ler after that, we took photos before going home...

A really never-before-experience for me...

...Let me blog more on my stay at Mukah, it was boring~

We stayed at this resort called Kingwood, not bad really..it's really nice but quite far from the town, there are no road lights along the way to town for 12 km's...

From Mukah, we went to Oya then Dalat and then Igan too..

tell you what, Dalat is a really boring village,really...

IM B@ck

Okay, the first thing i wanna say is SORRY to somebody, cuz I promised to update my blog like a week ago but i din...SORRY YA~my apologies..really...

I'll start from a week ago ....let's see, I went on a trip with my family to MUKAH and Sibu to visit my Grandparents from both sides...first stop we went to Sri Aman later then we came to Sarekei and took a rest there, besides I got relatives there too, I went visiting to my mother's childhood places and friends, after that we went on continuing our journey to Sibu...

We start our journey at 10.00 in the morning and reached Sibu at 8.00 at night...

that's a long time... hey guys do you ever noe that I'm actually borned in Sibu?

Sibu was where my father used to live and play during his childhood times... we went visiting too and the best part was, the food there was GREAT ~! Enough to satisfy me...

I ate 3 plates of KAMPUA and went straight to the toilet as soon as i reached the hotel...I was full to the top...man, it sure taste good.. and there are many more good food there besides that...

the next day, after a night at RH hotel..we continued again driving to MUKah..

the road was totally lousy, the car shook the whole way thru for a few hours like hell~!

TOOK THIS ON THE WAY...

Sarikei's landmark..Pineapple..

Can someone tell me what is that "thing" ? OMG

Later on my bro, sis and I start chewing bubble gums, it was fun indeed...

WHO's with the biggest bubble? not me of cuz....

Tell ya more in another post~ to be continued~!

HEY WE'RE ON THE MAG' !

It's a good thing that you let us use the B.p room that day, Jellyfish, see now we're on magazine, THE RICHES, ahahaha...

FUN DAY - B.P. ROOM

A few other pictures that WE have taken the other day at the B.P,

It was surely fun, I didn't even step foot in class, there was no class anyway,

so I decided to hang out with some friends at the B.P.

It's a bit blur,but it still looks good, doesn't it ?

The Awesome Trio , muahahah....TAKE COVER !!!!

OUR " MANYZER" ahaha...correct spelling M_A_N_A_G_E_R ...

GANGSTA STYLE !!!! how COOL is this??

Ryan in his EMO state, playing with his phone alone...

ah~this is more HANDSOME..

MOTHERS WORDs

the depressing days just goes on and on...

they will never stop haunting me and they are certainly depressing.

MY MOTHERs words hits me like a bomb hurtling from 30,000 feet at high speed,

it hits me HARD, really HARD, and I just can't get over it...

Her words are like blades, which cuts deep into my heart, it hurts me...

I know that her words are for my own sake, but they were just too harsh for me to take,

I know you may think that I'm not MAN enough, but they're just too traumatic,

I just couldn't help to defiant, to talk back...it's the only way I can express my feelings, to let her know how I feel, HOW I think, but either way, she just gets ANGRIER...

DO YOU ever have this feeling of depression, miserableness , loneliness and emptiness in your everyday life?

Well, I have, the same words everyday , scolding me, comparing my attitude,results and work with others, giving that unwillingness and emotionless face when she talks to me...

IT's JUST SO DEPRESSING...

The only cure to this miserable life, that is the need for HAPPINESS and where do I find it? SCHOOL, it get's me away from her screaming and scolding. At school, friends make me happy no matter what, the feeling of loneliness doesn't exist in SCHOOL, it helps a lot...

EVEN THOUGH, I still LOVE my parents, they gave me everything but smtimes they take it back from me, they gave the best to me , but in return I didn't...MY BAD

SCOLDING AND SCREAMING in my face doesn't improve anything, matter fact , it makes things worse( an advice)...

Her words are always to be obeyed,talking back always comes with a price...

MISS YA'LL ~ !

It's getting more and more closer to the holidays, just a few more days to go,

but i'll be missing a lot of people, the senior prefects(currently in the Form 2's), there are now more than just senior's to me, they have been really really helpful and I'm really glad to have this opportunity to know and also be friends with them, they have been really kind in helping the school as well as us... and a very special thanks to THIEN HOUW CZEE and LAWRENCE, you me helped a lot and I really appreciate it, I'll take your place in honor, for the school and I promise to do I good job and then pass it on to the "next generation" ahaha...I really owe you guys a lot, and I mean a lot, thank you!

What an emotional time for all of us....

BEST WISHES TO ALL MY FORM 2 FRIENDS...do good in PMR and make the school proud always in your support. GOD BLESS YOU ALL !

I have still more to learn , and i'm looking forward to it. And just a special request from me, JUZ DUN EVER FORGET ME, EVER !!

HELL~

What a very very busy day...

Today , I almost spend the whole day not in class, no not even for one hour, I just come in for a few minutes then I need to go out again...

Well, the latest update, today the debate on "this house believes that teachers play a more important role than parents in moulding a child's character" between 1A and 2A, that is Diana ong ( the first speaker from the Government), Priscilla yii( 2nd speaker) and Jason Chen (3rd speaker) against Low Zhe Ning ( 1st speaker from the Negative's), Angela Go (2nd speaker) and Diane Ngu ( 3rd speaker)..in the end, the house believes that teachers play a more important role than parents in moulding a child's character and that pretty much means that the Government WON ( 1A), congratulations!

I was the time-keeper so I had to be there, and so we skipped RECESS TIME again today, then there's this gathering of prefects at the hall right after that...whoa..Cikgu Helena and Mr.Wee briefed us on the prize-giving day that is coming soon, on this Friday. Jenny ( the new KP) then called me out to see if I could be some help to get some of the prefects to gather once again but this time in the classroom in Block1,she planned to have a spot-check on the Form 2B students and gave us a brief on it too...well,we confiscated 2 phones , lots of liquid papers plus magazines that aren't allowed in school, and then we spend the rest of the time briefing the new prefects on how to body-check somebody since they didn't really know how to do it ... When I went back to class it was already 4:45 smth, and there were hell lots of form to be filled..

Tomorrow, it'll be more busy. 12.00-2.00 there will be assembly and then the rehearsal for the prize-giving day including the PA systems that have to setup for Friday, next 15 prefects( including me) will have to help to arrange the chairs and tables and others, we have to stay back later if we can't finish on time to go home...really tiring...All the prefects will have to come for the prize-giving day to help with the cleaning up and yea parent teacher day, i'm so DEAD, don't know how it'll turn out in the end. 1st thought, my mum's gonna kill me !

Notice for prefects in-charge of the assembly( PA systems)

We had our first training for the "perhimpunan" setup today( 10/11/09),

it went quite well but I wasn't really happy bout it.

I wasn't happy on how it ended. It isn't about any faulty equipment...

Cooperation is the point I'm talking here,

you have to be clear of your responsibilities and things you should and shouldn't do,

you guys should always noe that you are to make things better and quicker, as in to help...

you don't just prepare and get all the things out and then just go off leaving all the rest to us?

then what for do I even need you?

You have to help to keep it also...

The ex-K.P(ketua perhimpunan) and I chose you guys in the 1st place to help , not to leave them all for us to do, and to "clean the mess up for you"....

You guys went off without any reason and without telling me, and you guys left the MC's, me , penaik bendera and even the KETUA PENGAWAS to keep all the PA systems, make this straight, their job isn't to help you, but YOU to help me and the skul, do you understand?

You made even the ketua pengawas to help to carry the table from the school hall up to the bilik pengawas, even more, she's a girl...

you should know that, if you take it out, you put it back, it is as simple as that, that is your responsibility....

This is the 1st and also the last warning to you guys, no more excuse for the next time.( I won't mention your names here, you should know who you are.)

Other than that, 4 of my penolong kanan are all very helpful and the rest too( prefects under me),

Happy to work together with you guys and also thank you very much Houw Czee and Lawrence...

From,

AJK Ketua Perhimpunan ( K.P 2009/2010)

and also the

KETUA PENGAWAS(2009/2010)

The DAYS just pass so quickly..

Exam's over already, can't seem to find a way to spend my time...

Basiclly, i'm really bored, in other words, SIENz....

no games, no fun entertainment...

Now , i know even watching TV , you can get bored..

I almost watch the TV for every minute i can spare on,

but I'm getting bored of doing the same thing everyday...

Hmm..let's see, today we have debate...

yea inter-class debate, 1A versus1A,

the Opposition team( Diana, Pris and Jason) was the winner..and the House believes

that the internet does more harm that good..there were hell lots of comments from the adjudicators, we even skipped RECESS time...

well, I spent the rest of the day searching for a few teachers, and it is tiring, the teachers are really hard to find indeed...

It took Jason and me half an hour just to find Pn.Rohayah..

aka The-Really-Short-One...

Muahahaha...

We're gonna have training for the new perhimpunan AJK's for 2010 starting tml(10/11/09-11/11/09) and there will b a rehearsal for the prize-giving day on Thursday(12/11/09)...

LESSON 1:speed = JETS muahaha....

Now,here is a list of the worlds fastest planes( top 50 )

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More:

The Apollo 10 craft reached Mach 37.6 upon re-entry;
the Helios satellite obriting the sun travels at Mach 227.3.
Keep in mind these are spacecraft and not aircraft.

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1 X-43 (Unmanned) - Mach 9.8 - 110,000 feet

2 X-15 - Mach 6.72 - 354,200 feet

The X-15 is the fastest manned aircraft in the world.

3 SR-71 Blackbird (YF-12) - Mach 3.2+ - 85,000+ feet

The SR-71 Blackbird is the fastest airplane in the world.

4 MiG-25R Foxbat-B - Mach 3.2 - 123,524 feet

5 X-2 - Mach 3.2 - 126,200 feet

6 XB-70 Valkyrie - Mach 3.1 - 77,350 feet

7 MiG-31 Foxhound - Mach 2.83 - 67,600 feet

8 F-15 Eagle- Mach2.5 - 60,000 feet

8 F-111 Aardvark- Mach2.5 - 60,000+ feet

9 X-1- Mach 2.435 - 90,440 feet

10 Su-24 Fencer- Mach 2.4 - 57,400 feet

11 Tu-144 Charger- Mach 2.35 - 59,055 feet

11 MiG-23 Flogger- Mach 2.35 - 60,700 feet

11 Su-27 Flanker- Mach 2.35 - 59,055 feet

12 F-14A Tomcat- Mach 2.34 - 58,000+

13 F-106 Delta Dart- Mach 2.31 - 57,000 feet

14 IAI Kfir -Mach 2.3 - 75,000 feet

14 English Electric Lightning -Mach 2.3 - 60,000 feet

14 MiG-29 Fulcrum -Mach 2.3 - 59,060 feet

14 F-107 Ultra Sabre- Mach 2.3 - 48,000 feet

15 Tornado ADV -Mach 2.2 - 69,997 feet

15 F-4 Phantom -Mach 2.2 - 62,250 feet

15 Mirage 2000 -Mach 2.2 - 59,055 feet

15 F-104 Starfighter- Mach 2.2 - 58,000 feet

(120,800 feet NF-104A)

15 B-58 Hustler- Mach 2.2 - 64,800 feet

16 F-105 Thunderchief- Mach 2.1 - 52,000 feet

16 A-5 Vigilante -Mach 2.1 - 52,100 feet

17 Su-22 -Mach 2.09 - 59,055 feet

18 Tu-160 Blackjack- Mach 2.05- 49,200 feet

18 MiG-21 Fishbed- Mach 2.05- 50,000 feet

18 Concorde- Mach 2.05- 60,000 feet

19 D558-2 Skyrocket- Mach 2.005 - 83,235 feet

20 YF-23 Black Widow II- Mach 2 (AB) - 65,000 feet

20 F-20 Tigershark- Mach 2+ - 55,000 feet

20 YF-17 Cobra- Mach 2+- 50,000 feet

21 Saab JAS 39 Gripen- Mach 2- 50,000 feet

21 F-16 Fighting Falcon- Mach 2 -50,000+ feet

21 Saab 37 Viggen- Mach 2 - 60,039 feet

21 Saab 35 Draken -Mach 2 - 65,600 feet

22 Tu-22M Backfire -Mach 1.88 - 43,635 feet

22 F-14B/D Tomcat- Mach 1.88 - 53,000+ feet

23 Su-34- Mach 1.8 - 45,890 feet

23 F/A-18E/F Super Hornet - Mach 1.8 - 50,000+ feet

23 F-22 Raptor- Mach 1.8 (AB) - 50,000 feet

24 XF-104 Starfighter- Mach 1.79 - 58,000 feet

25 F-8 Crusader- Mach 1.72 - 58,000 feet

26 F-101B Voodoo- Mach 1.66- 52,100 feet

27 X-29 FSW -Mach 1.6 - 50,000 feet

28 Tu-22 Blinder- Mach 1.52 - 48,228 feet

28 XF8U-1 Crusader- Mach 1.52 - 58,000 feet

29 SEPECAT Jaguar- Mach 1.5 - 45,930 feet

30 F-5 Freedom Fighter- Mach 1.4 - 50,700 feet

31 F-100 Super Sabre -Mach 1.3 - 51,000 feet

32 X-31 EFMI -Mach 1.28 - 40,000 feet

33 B-1b Lancer- Mach 1.25 - 50,000+ feet

34 F-102 Delta Dagger -Mach 1.23 - 55,000 feet

35 T-38 Talon -Mach 1.22 - 55,000+ feet

36 XF-90- Mach 1.1 - 39,000 feet

37 MiG-17 Fresco- Mach 1.05- 52,366 feet

38 F-86 Sabre- Mach 1.04- 50,800 feet

39 F-117 Nighthawk- High Subsonic- 45,000 feet

40 AV-8B Harrier II- Mach 0.98- 41,700+ feet

41 F-94 Starfire- Mach 0.97- 51,800 feet

42 A-6 Intruder- Mach 0.94 - 42,400 feet

43 Saab 32 Lansen- Mach 0.93- 52,500 feet

44 F-80 Shooting Star- Mach 0.88 - 46,800 feet

45 BAe Nimrod 2000- Mach 0.87 - 42,000 feet

46 B-52 Stratofortress- Mach 0.86 - 55,000 feet

47 U-2 Dragon Lady- Mach 0.8 - 90,000 feet

48 C-5 Galaxy - Mach 0.79 - 35,750 feet

49 C-141 Starlifter - Mach 0.77 - 41,600 feet

49 C-17 Globemaster III - Mach 0.77 - 45,000 feet

50 Westland Lynx - Mach 0.3 - 10,600+ feet

The Lynx is the fastest helicopter in the world.

MAN how cool is this ??

Gibraltar Airport, Runway shared by Normal City road

Coming soon - EXAMZ

Man, this ain't good , ain't good at all. Exam's just right around the corner, THE YEAR END EXAM and I'm haven't even start revising. Damn it...better start my revisions now and fast, or else buhbye to 2A ( well, of course it wont happen. Not in a thousand years.) I have to teach myself to be more HARDWORKING and to be SMARTER. Get Smart! why do ppl think of exams and studying as a really hard and stressful thing. My advise, RELAX cool down, think positive of course, like me! ahaha...try listening to some music, it's sure to be effective.. MUSIC IS LIFE as long as there is my MP4, my life never gets bored..plus papa's driving a new car home, SOON..muahahah...and the part I like most is it's fitted with 5 stereo sound-surrounding speakers with home theater..WAKAO..the bass is super HIONG!!! Top grade ALPARD toyota, full spec...

I'm sorry mum...

I'm sorry mama,

I never meant to hurt you,

I never meant to make you cry...

She never talked to me since.

That night,

her heart ...

her heart shattered into a million pieces,

like broken glass...

My life wasn't the same since...

I woke up late this morning,

hoping for her to scream at me,

but...she never did.

It wasn't the same for me,

for I'd never seen her so disappointed in me,

this was the first time.

I went downstairs and saw her ironing our clothes,

but mine was left aside..

She ignored me..

She didn't even looked at me...

Her face was emotionless...

She is giving up on me...

The whole morning was nothing, but silence..

I went over to the dinner table,

where breakfast was usually prepared,

but NOTHING, nothing was on the table.

So I turned my head over to her

who was across the living room.

She ignored me and went upstairs instead...

I made breakfast myself..

just a simple egg with some seasoning on top and a cup of Milo.

She went out just as soon as I finished breakfast,

I was left alone at home...

I couldn't help thinking about what happened that night.

I sat by the dinner table, thinking to myself..

How could this happen to me, I've made my mistakes,

but it was too late, everything was too late.

If only I've known better, this was avoidable,

it wouldn't have to turn out this way...

The hour hand strucked 2,

it was lunch time and she wasn't back yet.

My tummy was growling, so I went to the kitchen,

hoping to find some food for myself...

Thank god! There were some leftovers from last night.

There was rice, still warm and soup that she'd made earlier.

Today, I prayed before having lunch and ate lunch myself on the dinner table...

It was lonely...I never knew that life could be this lonely...

" Dear father god, I hope that

this would be over soon,

Forgive me , Lord

for what I've done,

and me... forgiven..

I made her sad, I broke her heart,

Forgive me mum..

I never meant to hurt you.

In Jesus Christ, Amen..."

About EM!NEM aka SL!M SHady

EMiNEM

Background information:

• Birth name -- Marshall Bruce Mathers III
• Also known as -- Slim Shady / EMiNEM
• Born -- October 17, 1972( age 36 ) S.t Joseph, Missouri, U.S
• Origin -- Warren, Michigan , U.S
• Genres -- Hardcore Hip-hop, horrorcore
• Occupations -- Rapper , Producer , Actor , Songwriter
• Years active -- 1995 - present
• Labels -- Bassmint productions, Mashin' Duck Records, Web Ent. , Interscope Records, Aftermath Ent. , Shady Records
• Associated -- D12 , Bad Meets Evil , Dr.Dre , 50 cents , Obie Trice
• Website -- www.eminem.com

Marshall Bruce Mathers III (born October 17, 1972),¹ known by his primary stage name Eminem, or by his alter ego Slim Shady, is an American rapper, record producer and actor. Eminem quickly gained popularity in 1999 with his major-label debut album The Slim Shady LP, which won a Grammy Award for Best Rap Album. The following album, The Marshall Mathers LP, became the fastest-selling hip hop albumin history.² It brought Eminem increased popularity, including his own record label,Shady Records, and brought his group project D12 to mainstream recognition.

The Marshall Mathers LP and his third album, The Eminem Show, also won Grammy Awards, and in 2002, he won the Academy Award for Best Original Song for a song in the film 8 Mile, in which he also played the lead. Eminem then went on hiatus after touring in 2005. He released his first album since 2004's Encore, titled Relapse, on May 15, 2009. Eminem has sold more than 75 million albums worldwide,³ and in the United States is the best selling music artist of the 2000s.⁴ Eminem is also ranked in the 100 Greatest Artists of All Time by Rolling Stone magazine.⁵ Eminem was also voted 2009's Hottest MC by MTV.